Cycle 2 day 2

       Here it is the end of day two. I have forgotten how miserable this whole process is. I felt pretty good last week.  I was able to get in a few runs, actually do my own yard, and eat almost anything I wanted.  But nowI sit here on the verge of vomiting, headache, and it feels like I have battery acid running through my veins.      

       My chest and lungs are burning  and it hurts to breathe, and I feel like I just finished a 200 mile race. Not the most pleasant combination of feelings I must admit. However things could always be worse at least I  am vertical for the moment. I did however change the brakes on Melanie's van today. (they really needed it)

         It still feels like a dream. I keep waiting to wake up and have all my hair, feel well, and be able to walk up our 15 stairs to go watch the kids play in the loft without getting winded. This whole experience has given me appreciation for the small things in life. To be able to eat a meal instead of staring at it hoping I can keep it down. (having a meal even sound good or even wanting to eat is a good start)  Sleeping through the night, being able to go for a walk with my sweetheart, drinking a glass of water with out pain, being able to enjoy playing with my children. Being able to lay flat on my back without 2-3 pillows.

           I definitely couldn't go through this with out the help of my dear wife. Melanie sterilizes the house each night before we go to bed. (no small task)  She is constantly asking me what sounds good to eat. She is willing to do anything for me at the drop of a hat and never complains. She wakes up every time I roll over in bed and asks me if I am ok and what she can do. She sits for five hours a day in the chemo suite just to be with me while I am getting treatments. She watches me as I am on the verge of tears from the nausea and pain and tells me she wishes she could do more for me. I am a very blessed husband.

         It is a good feeling to know that I am almost half way through my treatments. If I can just make it to the end of next week, I should start feeling better. We have been so blessed through this whole process a BIG THANK YOU to all our friends and family who have sacrificed so much to ease our burdens. You are in our prayers and may the Lord bless you for all you have done for us.